I hate waiting! Waiting in long lines for my favorite ride in Disneyland, waiting for the elevator, waiting for a response when I needed it most, waiting to get home while stuck in a traffic jam, I even get mad when Ryry does not get to finish school work quickly. I am terribly impatient.
Funny thing yet is that God gave me a husband who is slow moving. A husband who is an exact opposite of how fast I want things to be done. A husband who would take the time of his life to get ready and we will definitely be late for something.
Then that is teaching me something…
“Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
Ever since we moved to our own place, my patience and endurance was tested one too many times up to the point that I stopped worrying, I literally did, and let God do his job.
Opposite to as what Ryry would always tell us “I don’t like waiting, waiting is boring!” everytime she would want a new toy and we were kinda short that month, we tell her that we only buy toys on special occasions like her birthday or Christmas. I would also trick her to make a list of all the things she wanted for those occasions, little did she know I also wanted her to practice writing. Haha!
Waiting is tough. Tough when you are hanging by one hand on a cliff as if you will fall any minute now. How it feels everytime we worry about our expenses. For six months, it already become so tiring and draining but God lifts us up everytime we feel like falling.
It’s been almost a year since Mike has been trying to restore our one, tiny only car. It has cost him too much trouble and money already that I would always nag him for it. But he would lovingly rebuke me by being oh so very technical about selling it and buying a new one. Obviously, we can’t afford to have a new one. Therefore we pray and wait.
God is never early or late, he is always on time!
I always pray for my husband. Pray for good health because he needs to work. Pray for wisdom so he can decide well for our family. Pray for his heart so all our petty fights will go away. And lastly, I pray for high paying job so he would make us prosperous.
The other ones, God usually answers with a big YES. The last one though is on wait list. God provides plenty of opportunities for Mike’s career to grow, but the pay is not always what we expect. But the Lord taught us this…
Blessings will not always be in the form of money or a nice car, it can be a peaceful life or full bellies or good and healthy kids.
Honestly, I feel terrible writing my worries sometimes because when I step back and look at our lives, we are truly blessed to be able to live it easily.
What’s wrong is that we expect God to send us a check right on our doorsteps forgetting the fact that God has his mysterious ways of answering our prayers. I want to share with you some perfect examples that happened in our family…
1. My phone broke and I know having it fixed will cost us a lot, good thing someone is sending me a new phone.
2. I am ready to buy Ryry’s book from a local distributor but it will cost me more than buying it from Amazon, praise God because someone is coming from the US and accommodated our request in bringing the book for us.
3. I’ve been depressed on how we haven’t styled/completed the furniture and appliances in our house because it is not cheap to do that, amazing how someone offered to share her blessings to us and would help us build a home.
4. Mike has been having a hard time in making ends meet and still have extra to finish restoring our car. So we have been blessed by someone’s generosity and extended a hand for us to finally get the car done.
5. I was also praying for Ryry to be enrolled in a sport but because I know it would be expensive to do it, I was ready to close the idea but then thru someone’s love for her and it will be her birthday soon, we will now be able to enroll her in Gymnastics!
Not to mention people who keep on taking care of us and most especially those who are always willing to baby sit the kids or lend us a car so we can be comfortable most of the time. Those who keep showering us with gifts like vacations, clothing, food, etc. People who continuously pray for us and mentors us. These kinds of blessings from the Lord that I have lost count of.
All these happened everytime I feel like giving up but be reminded to wait for the Lord.
He did not wired money directly to our account but he gave us people. People who helps us with no ifs or buts. Kind people in our lives are way better than gold.
24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Waiting can be boring, but waiting for the Lord brings eternal blessings!
PS. I learned to trust my husband regarding car issues. I would give him my insight but still let him decide because he knows better. I let God give him wisdom in deciding and submit to him.